Monday 12th July 1993

Drunk! And Id been sober for the last three days too. I can always get a few days (and weeks if im lucky) of sobriety under my belt, then go and screw it all up again!! Im mixing all kinds of pills and alcohol too. From whiskey to beer, and valium to mogadon. It all licks at my skeleton like an inferno of calm and dread. It haunts me this stuff. It is my nemesis to be sure. To be honest I don't want to be totally sober. Not deep down. Hell if I did, I would!! I like to imbibe in toxic dew and candy. This stuff wakes me up, and inspires me.