Sunday 10 January 1993

Stayed sober for the day, got drunk at night. Im trying to stay sober but its tough. Ive been sober for a few times but its boring. I don't know how I will live, or how i'll eventually die. Im a young man, but I feel, from my wretched guts, as old as stale bread. Its shitty to drink, but worse not to. I think im alcoholic, but im having fun, and isn't that the main thing?